Nic at exhibition

Bollix

When Life Isn’t All It’s Craic’d Up to Be

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In Ireland we use dark humour to cope with the tough stuff. We call it the craic - and the craic will pull you back from the edge faster than a therapy session. My hero was Billy Connolly; he got me through more rough nights than I care to remember. Therapy matters (I’ve had it and I recommend it). So does a laugh that cuts through the shite.

What the book is really about

Life didn’t just throw the book at Nic Russell - it dropped the whole library.

Northern Irish-born, Kiwi by choice, Nic’s lived through cancer, the death of her three-year-old daughter Kenzie, Parkinson’s and a heart transplant - yet, somehow, she still gets up swinging.

Out of that chaos came Kenzie’s Gift, the charity she founded to help children and young people whose parent or sibling has died or is seriously ill. Two decades on, it’s supported thousands across New Zealand.

Bollix is Nic’s no-nonsense and, at times, darkly funny memoir of survival, swearing and starting again when life refuses to play fair. Bold, brave and brilliantly human.

Mackenzie and Nicola

Early Praise for Bollix

“If it were fiction you’d think it unbelievable.”
Hilary Barry
Journalist and Broadcaster
“Real health has been described not as the absence of disease, but as the will to overcome every form of adversity and use even the worst of circumstances as a springboard for new growth and development. No patient I have cared for epitomises those sentiments more than Nic."
Assoc. Professor Dr Jonathan Christiansen
Cardiologist
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A SNEAK PEAK

An excerpt from Bollix!

“What the actual fucketyfuck!” I exclaimed.

The hours of wine-fueled brainstorming had passed by without anyone noticing, and Conor and Kimmi were back early. I scrambled to my feet and tried to head them off. Too late.

Conor saw the coffin in all its glory, a bright pink, gleaming spectacle in the sunshine, surrounded by a group of startled and inebriated women covered in pink splotches.

"Oh, look, Mummy!” he said, pointing at our creation. “Can I get in it?”

Nic at swimming pool
outdoor

Who this book is for?

People who prefer honesty over hype: carers and clinicians, leaders and teachers, the grief‑adjacent and the grief‑immersed, and anyone trying to keep their footing while the world keeps moving and your heart hasn’t caught up.

FAQs

When exactly is it out?

September 1st 2026 

Where can I buy it?

Order on this site! It is also available at some of the usual retailers.

Will there be signed copies?

Yes. The first 200 paperback copies ordered directly through this website will be signed by Nic. First in, first served. Once they're gone, all further orders will be unsigned.

Is there strong language?

A bit. Honest, not performative.

Can book clubs get a guide?

Yes - I’ll share a reading‑group set during pre‑orders.

Release & formats

Out September 1st 2026 with Bateman Books. Orders live now! 

Author: Nic Russell
Format: Paperback
Publisher: Bateman Books
Publication date: 1 September 2026
ISBN: 978-1-77689-187-0

THE FIRST 200 COPIES WILL BE SIGNED

The first 200 paperback copies ordered directly through this website will be signed by Nic.
First in, first served. Once the signed copies are gone, all further orders will be unsigned.
NZ and International shipping available. Shipping calculated at checkout.

Digital versions coming soon!

Bollix will be also available as an audiobook and on Kindle.
These formats are sold by external retailers.

Adventure, oceans & cold water

I’ve always been an adventurer. I lived off‑grid for two years on Motutapu. I taught scuba; now I dive for the love of it. I cold‑water swim and helped set up a national cold‑water fundraiser. Each year I meet my friend Sarah, another bereaved mum, at Lake Tekapō to swim—part ritual, part reminder we’re still here. There’s a short TVNZ documentary about that swim—watch it below.

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