Nic at exhibition

Bollix

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Releasing in October 2026

In Ireland we use dark humour to cope with the tough stuff. We call it the craic - and the craic will pull you back from the edge faster than a therapy session. My hero was Billy Connolly; he got me through more rough nights than I care to remember. Therapy matters (I’ve had it and I recommend it). So does a laugh that cuts through the shite.

What the book is really about

I never signed up to be a poster child for resilience, yet here I am, a bereaved mother, a breast cancer survivor, a heart transplant recipient, and living with Parkinson’s disease. ‘Craic’, as we call it back home, means ‘fun’, but finding it amidst all the shite, well, that takes a special kind of stubbornness.
My daughter, Kenzie, was diagnosed with a childhood cancer at the age of three and I was diagnosed with breast cancer at the same time. Kenzie died, and I didn’t. Years later, my broken heart failed me and I needed a transplant, then Parkinson’s waltzed in like an uninvited guest who refuses to leave, and still people say to me, ‘Everything happens for a reason’.



Aye, right. You can fuck right off.



This is not a story of ‘triumph over tragedy’. It’s about living when life doesn’t go to plan, grief that has no expiry date, a body that keeps breaking down, and a life that doesn’t follow the script.  It’s also a story of refusing to be defined by death, illness, or the expectations of others, of stubbornly carving out joy — even when the universe seems hell-bent on making that impossible — and finding laughter in small, precious moments.

Mackenzie and Nicola

Early Praise for Bollix

“If it were fiction you’d think it unbelievable that one person could endure so much. The fact it’s true is all the more remarkable."
Hilary Barry
Journalist and Broadcaster
“Real health has been described not as the absence of disease, but as the will to overcome every form of adversity and use even the worst of circumstances as a springboard for new growth and development. No patient I have cared for epitomises those sentiments more than Nic."
Assoc. Professor Dr Jonathan Christiansen
Cardiologist
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A SNEAK PEAK

An excerpt from Bollix!

“What the actual fucketyfuck!” I exclaimed.

The hours of wine-fueled brainstorming had passed by without anyone noticing, and Conor and Kimmi were back early. I scrambled to my feet and tried to head them off. Too late.

Conor saw the coffin in all its glory, a bright pink, gleaming spectacle in the sunshine, surrounded by a group of startled and inebriated women covered in pink splotches.

"Oh, look, Mummy!” he said, pointing at our creation. “Can I get in it?”

Nic at swimming pool
outdoor

Who this book is for?

People who prefer honesty over hype: carers and clinicians, leaders and teachers, the grief‑adjacent and the grief‑immersed, and anyone trying to keep their footing while the world keeps moving and your heart hasn’t caught up.

FAQs

When exactly is it out?

October 2026 (day to come).

Where can I buy it?

Pre-order on this site now! It will also become available at the usual retailers.

Will there be signed copies?

Likely—sign up to the newsletter to stay in the know.

Is there strong language?

A bit. Honest, not performative.

Can book clubs get a guide?

Yes—I’ll share a reading‑group set during pre‑orders.

Release & formats

Out October 2026 with Bateman Books. Hardcover and ebook at launch; audiobook TBC. Pre‑orders will open closer to release—join the list for first dibs, launch events and any signed‑copy options.

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Adventure, oceans & cold water

I’ve always been an adventurer. I lived off‑grid for two years on Motutapu. I taught scuba; now I dive for the love of it. I cold‑water swim and helped set up a national cold‑water fundraiser. Each year I meet my friend Sarah, another bereaved mum, at Lake Tekapō to swim—part ritual, part reminder we’re still here. There’s a short TVNZ documentary about that swim—watch it below.

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